I feel like I should update at least once a year so to see how things have changed, I guess.

I'm making a list because I like lists.

1. I hate my body. Need to work on that when I have the willpower.
2. Brand New is still my favorite band. I've seen them 12 times. Brian Lane is my friend. And the rest of them know who my friends and I are. SCHWEET.
3. My dad's in a better place even though he should be with me.
4. I don't go to college.  But I will be in the fall. Still not decided. It's either Hunter or CSI.
5. I lost some friends and gain some amazing ones.
6. Boys are lousy.

And I really can't think of anything else because I'm tired. Plus Over the Hedge is on and it's a cute movie.

So I have a real journal that I'd much prefer to write in. So I guess no more xanga.

Ta-ta kids.

Okay, I'll admit. Seeing douchey mcdouchey last night was very nice. I wanted to gobble him up. After all, he still is pretty cute minus his whoreish ways. God damn him for being able to manipulate me like that. I'm pretty sure if I had the chance, I'd fall into his trap all over again.

Remember when I was stressed out about college? And then I was happy about it? Well, now I'm stressed out again. I have to deal with student loans now, YES! But honestly, I don't want to go anymore. I hate that I have to travel into Brooklyn for 2 hours just to go to ONE class. I honestly hate my classes and the fact that I don't have a major. Or have an idea for a major. I wanted advertising but they don't have it. I wanted public relations but they don't have it. And writing? I can forget about that. I don't have confidence in my writing at all so I'm not going to bother. Hey, maybe I'm just whining. Maybe I will end up liking it. But I wish I knew if I didn't or not already. It's driving me off the edge.

I think I'm in need of another personal vacation complete with men at my call, warm weather, and problem-free days. How perfect would that be?

I'm back from Canada which I'm very upset and happy about. It was really fun but I was sort of getting homesick. But it was a refresher course which made me realize how much I love my family. Ali and Katie are amazing chicks. And Ali's friend, Nicole, is also awesome. Toronto is a beautiful city. But nothing beats Manhattan. Brand New is nothing short of amazing. And the feeling I get when I see them live is euphoria. I have a newfound love for Brian Lane. His eyes with his skin color is beautiful. I am jealous. And I was able to make him laugh so that's pretty cool. Sarah and Lynn are cool girls. I got a light blue 'Fight Off Your Demons' shirt and it just makes me more excited for their 3rd album. I am officially eighteen and the first thing I'm doing that requires you to be 18 is the museum of sex. How exciting. The past 6 days have been a blast.

So am I ready for another round of vacation. This time, Lake George where I be sleeping 16 hours a day and seeing Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead's Man's Chest for the 3rd time. But I think 2 weeks without a computer is going to be sort of tough but I make it anyway.

Go see Clerks 2.

Ta-Ta.

I'm off to Canada. Be back in a week.